Ghost Whisperer

So my latest obsession is Ghost Whisperer. It appeals to me on so many levels most of them being I'm a chick, hence the tear jerking sappy scenes. Second I'm from a broken family so I believe each moment might be the last and I need to let you know how I feel should I die in the next hour (or so).

I have always felt the need to let people know how I feel, where I'm going, where I've been and who I was with. All this just in case I might go missing and you are questioned by the police as to my whereabouts. See? In that case, you could give valuable info to the popo and they could find me. I might be tied up in a trunk, in a hospital bed with amnesia, or maybe already gone and in a shallow grave. Either way I've done my part in helping the good people help find and save me.

Save me? Maybe that is more significant. Maybe I've just been leaving a trail my whole life just waiting for someone to come and save me. Save me from what? My life? I have a good life. My job? No problem there. So what? My past? Save the abondoned child who's Dad gave up custody and who's Mom ignored her? Who's Stepdad took a strange interest in a pre-teen girl? Yeah that's what I need saving from. Saving from what was and what could have been. Ghost Whisperer gave me the belief I have a purpose - no matter how inconvenient or heartbreaking it might be now. It's all worth it in the end - you're end, my end - who cares. I have been inspired to do better, be more patient, give more easily, and expect there is some bigger picture I didn't discover in a one hour time frame. It's all part of a greater plan, not my plan, but a bigger plan. One I'm not knowledgable of and I need to trust in. Our plan. So give freely, give to those you can - and watch TV. It has more to give than you think...